Look into the mirror and realize you want to die.<\/p>\n
Like a girl in her teens again obsessing over men who are not yet men and girls who are more woman than you.
\nFirst, you will go to class as if nothing ever happened, like everything is fine. You\u2019ll make it to third period before you meet him, and he\u2019ll be wearing your favorite shade of blue.
\nHe\u2019ll notice you immediately, and though you\u2019ve never met before, the intensity of his stare will make you and anyone else think otherwise.
\nInstead of your name, he asks your major, you say Interior Design. And like smoke seeps into couch cushions, his energy, his power, seeps into you. You don\u2019t want to die as much as you did five hours ago. You crack a smile.
\nBoth of you are coincidentally free in the same hour. You go get coffee. You order a Vanilla Frappe and he orders coffee, black. He calls you clich\u00e9 for your frappe and you call him bitter for black.
\nThere you are, basking in someone else\u2019s energy, one that\u2019s not your own destructive rage and fury, and you love it. Yet you still don\u2019t know his name, but you don\u2019t care.
\nHe says it\u2019s time for him to go, that he\u2019ll see you some time later, though he\u2019s hesitant to leave.
\nYou don\u2019t pay attention to his farewell, as it\u2019s almost impossible for him to find you on such a campus.
\nAs days go by, you forget him. You are your own energy again, you are consumed.
\nYou are sitting outside of a coffee shop, writing a letter to someone who will never read it. Then there\u2019s a tap on your shoulder, it\u2019s him. In green now, he looks more appealing and although you\u2019ve never liked forests, this shade changes your mind.
\nHe asks you on a date, specifically \u201cwould you like to go out some time?\u201d
\nAnd you oblige. You haven\u2019t been out in a while, so why not.
\nYou find yourself in a bar, three drinks in and you\u2019re still sober. He\u2019s also on number three but spouting nonsense left and right at whoever walks by. He\u2019s funny, really funny. You laugh so hard that your stomach hurts.
\nThat night when you are alone, you want to die again.
\nYou will see all your insecurities and they will consume you entirely.
\nYou\u2019ll sleep, trying to forget them for now.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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