Take a step in my direction<\/p>\n
come closer,<\/p>\n
no.\u00a0 really look at me.<\/p>\n
observe my fuzzy lines and changing angles.<\/p>\n
Notice I havent yet faded?<\/p>\n
I’ve just switched\u00a0 my colors<\/p>\n
from a solid green to yellowed, rainbow pinstripes.<\/p>\n
I am different;<\/p>\n
I am changing.<\/p>\n
Sometimes, I feel like I am not who I am supposed to be.\u00a0 Not that who I am is bad.\u00a0 Just that I never saw myself here, not physically, but personality-wise.<\/p>\n
So when I think about reverting, going back to the old me or who I think I am supposed to be; I reject the idea within minutes.\u00a0 First, I think, ‘What a great exterior that would be.’\u00a0 Then I realize just how unhappy I would be.<\/p>\n
So, I am accepting the changing, the shaping, the unknowing.\u00a0 I’m going to tumble where the wind blows me.\u00a0 I don’t want to be tied down, yet I don’t want to be lost to all.\u00a0 \u00a0There is a sort of balance I strive for, which, I know will take a long time to achieve.\u00a0 Somehow, it’s like I won’t be happy until I can follow my heart, but I also want someone to help guide me along the way from time to time.\u00a0 It’s sort of a give and take.\u00a0 It just isn’t as easy as staying still and stagnant, which I can’t do.<\/p>\n
I don’t care that it might take years; I accept the challenge.<\/p>\n
Since I was in junior high, I wanted to become familiar with every inch of land on this earth.\u00a0 I wanted to feel every ray of sun and moon, and touch every drop of ocean and sea.\u00a0 I wanted a new perspective because I knew the one I had was not the only one to have, and that bothered me.\u00a0 I need variety.\u00a0 I need change.<\/p>\n
Before now–today, sitting right here typing this–I had been stuck on the past.\u00a0 I was stuck on everything that had ever bruised or brushed me, good or bad.<\/p>\n
I think I am done with that.\u00a0 I think that from now on I am going to try to transition into a new sight, a completely different outlook on person.\u00a0 I used to see all those cheesy quotes like, “It’s not where you came from, it’s where you’re headed”.\u00a0 I would look at them and think, ‘no.’\u00a0 But now, I find sort of a truth in it.\u00a0 It does matter where I came from, but not as much as I previously had thought.<\/p>\n
I am headed wherever I choose.\u00a0 Not one word of my past will whisper my future, because if people can change immensely, so can fate.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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