When I\u2019m sitting in a space for a long time, I think of all the things I\u2019ve ever done in life. For example, I\u2019ve rode a pogo stick and I once climbed a very high tree. When I was 12, I went on a diet where I only ate strawberry yogurt. I used to push safety pins beneath the very thin layer of my hand. The dead skin layer, that did not make my hand bleed. These memories aren\u2019t big accomplishments, but they are on the top of my head. I associate my past self with them. And they are all memories from childhood, years and years ago. It bewilders me that I can remember this stuff from long ago, but I don\u2019t know what I did this past year or last week.\u00a0 Sometimes I think it\u2019s because I am not interesting enough. I don\u2019t do all those weird things that kids do anymore, I\u2019m not that excited about life. Therefore, my brain chooses not to remember me.<\/p>\n
\u00a0I had a conversation this weekend with my friend, and it completely changed my view on this. We were talking about things, people, cars, air conditioning. Stuff you talk about with people you know. And they randomly told me they once lived on a farm with cows, horses and all kinds of herd. They gave very detailed descriptions of this memory, and I was dumbfounded. It seemed like they had lived this kind of life every day. Even if they did not, they have at least thought of the memory every day. But once the story was over, they looked as dumbfounded as I did. They asked me afterward, \u201cdo you ever have those moments of life that you simply do not remember until you sit down and start saying them out loud?\u201d Firstly, I thought it was impressive that they had discovered this story from deep within their mind. It was amazing.<\/p>\n
But when I thought about it a little longer, I started to understand what they were talking about. If this memory had suddenly sprang up on them, then maybe my problem was the opposite of that. I think most of the time we know about ourselves through our conscious minds, but our subconscious minds can play a huge role in it as well. Some memories are easier to pull up. Other memories are stored for later until something springs them up. In this case, it was the act of conversation. But it can be more things like a certain activity, maybe golfing.<\/p>\n
I thought this was interesting to think about because I feel like I am not recording anything I do these days. The days just fly by, and it seems like I am taking them for granted. But what if I do remember them? I just can\u2019t access them in the way I access memories that have more time behind them.<\/p>\n
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