Watch me stand alone at night and listen to the voices in my head-hear me scream your name in my sleep and wonder if it’s because I love or hate you.<\/p>\n
Tell me that you love me, and realize that my walls have been up this whole time. You don’t want them to come down- I would be a different person. You’re already in love with the sad me, I shouldn’t bother with anything else.<\/p>\n
Let me know how you feel on bad days and good days and all the days in between- send the ‘I’m busy’ text when I get emotional.<\/p>\n
Wrap your vine arms around me and feel me shake, hold me tighter. Tell yourself that I’m cold and it’s not the fact that your arms remind me of a cage I couldn’t escapef. You don’t even know the story. My teeth have shattered.<\/p>\n
Listen to my silence and make it your melody. Count the beats until I crescendo into nothingness. Breathe through your nose. Keep your back straight.<\/p>\n
Follow me into the dark, strike a match and watch me burn. Relish in my light- singe your eyebrows. Take a step back. Stare as my ashes are blown away in the wind. Leave.<\/p>\n
Eat my heart. Feel my blood soak through your tongue, washing away your lies with my own. Devour my eyes- see what I keep hidden.<\/p>\n
Don’t let me see your scars. Feel the ridges on my arms and squirm- I’ll start to hide mine too. Long sleeves and locked up words. Everyone is satisfied. My throat is burning.<\/p>\n
Wait until I’m asleep, cast your shadows on top of my own. Choke the flame from my dreams-make it your own.<\/p>\n
Want what we can’t have. Wish on a million stars, beg the gods, hold your breath. Our hands do not fit together.<\/p>\n
Fear the future. Flee from the right now. Hold down your shaking hands. Drop your concerns on my doorstep- don’t leave a return address.<\/p>\n
Smile at my middle name. Tell me it fits perfectly- beauty and callus bring the smells of spring and my exhaustion.<\/p>\n
Wonder when I’ll come to my senses- try to run back. Daydream of untied shoelaces and slippery streets. Feel content with broken bones.<\/p>\n
Imagine a day when our eyes will be able to meet without the world erupting. It’s impossible. You squint your eyes. The picture stays fuzzy.<\/p>\n
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