{"id":18810,"date":"2024-01-26T13:57:00","date_gmt":"2024-01-26T19:57:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/?p=18810"},"modified":"2024-01-26T13:57:03","modified_gmt":"2024-01-26T19:57:03","slug":"loss-of-control","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/2024\/01\/26\/loss-of-control\/","title":{"rendered":"Loss of Control"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Your body is not your own. It never belonged to anyone, but the crowd begs for an encore so in one final move, you rip your heart out of your chest and present it, still beating. The crowd goes wild.<\/p>\n<p>Your body is not your own. It never belonged to anyone, but here you sit, sacrificing your skin to exist on raw flesh alone, and praying they don\u2019t ask for more. You can\u2019t sit comfortable in exposed bone.<\/p>\n<p>Your body is not your own. It never belonged to anyone, but strangers gnaw on your visage like free candy, so you leave pieces at home until there was less of you to eat. Eventually, there\u2019s too much. You don\u2019t show up.<\/p>\n<p>Your body is not your own. It never belonged to anyone, but the mirror is a cruel mistress and rather than remove its horrible face and admit defeat, you reshape. Recreate until your smile is an amalgamation and your face is something made of diamonds.<\/p>\n<p>Your body is not your own. It never belonged to anyone, but the tithe you pay isn\u2019t enough. They ask one thing of you: an offering. Down the drain of this little wooden pail goes red streams and they take it back with a smile. You\u2019ve done your duty.<\/p>\n<p>Your body is not your own. It never belonged to anyone, but still, they\u2019ve plucked too many teeth to go back now, so all they can do is pluck out one more, say sorry, and then take their blood-soaked hand and pluck out another. They had good intentions. Truly, they did.<\/p>\n<p>Your body is not your own. It never belonged to anyone, but you\u2019ve given up too much to go back now. Your body is made of fire and ash and made to sell 0.99, your body is <em>perfect<\/em>.<\/p>\n<p>Your body is worth nothing. Your body is not your own.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Your body is not your own. It never belonged to anyone, but the crowd begs for an encore so in one final move, you rip your heart out of your chest and present it, still beating. The crowd goes wild. Your body is not your own. It never belonged to anyone, but here you sit, &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/2024\/01\/26\/loss-of-control\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Loss of Control&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":89,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18810"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/89"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18810"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18810\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18811,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18810\/revisions\/18811"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18810"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18810"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18810"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}