{"id":11939,"date":"2021-04-07T15:40:22","date_gmt":"2021-04-07T20:40:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/?p=11939"},"modified":"2021-04-07T15:40:26","modified_gmt":"2021-04-07T20:40:26","slug":"enduring-the-trauma","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/2021\/04\/07\/enduring-the-trauma\/","title":{"rendered":"Enduring the Trauma"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Some form of trauma exists in us all.\u00a0<\/span>I have seen the results of having a divorce in a\u00a0<\/span>terrorizing cult some may call a religion.\u00a0<\/span>I\u00a0<\/span>feel as though some people<\/span>\u00a0think the couple\u00a0<\/span>is better together for the children. I can tell you\u00a0<\/span>now<\/span>\u00a0<\/span>it\u2019s<\/span>\u00a0bad apart,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span>worse staying together.\u00a0<\/span>The\u00a0<\/span>\u201c<\/span>religion<\/span>\u201d\u00a0<\/span>being one of the underlying dementors of it all.\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

The cult obstructs your way of reasoning religion. One jumps to the conclusion of immediate ostracizing with mention of a god or deity. Cast away!<\/span>\u00a0I don\u2019t know if that\u00a0<\/span>should be<\/span>\u00a0the case<\/span>\u00a0though<\/span>, and that is not the joy<\/span>\u00a0I have to write\u00a0<\/span>of<\/span>. There are nights where things are spoken of or\u00a0<\/span>illuminated into the conscious view that will have an everlasting evolution on one\u2019s perception.\u00a0<\/span>Loose-lipped whispers and rumors are hard to be believe until you\u2019ve heard so many that those seem like the only tokens of truth from historians of the time<\/span>, a time and places you were too young to\u00a0<\/span>remember<\/span>\u00a0or your mind simply helped you forget.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span>It\u2019s a game of t<\/span>rying to unlock an unknown past of<\/span> messed up decisions<\/span>\u00a0made<\/span>\u00a0onto innocent\u00a0<\/span>minds.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I used to be carefree on the matter. I would let my mind deceive me into thinking I had no\u00a0<\/span>qualms in the matter.\u00a0<\/span>I should simply ignore the hard times.\u00a0<\/span>It does not perceive me some might say. That was only doing an injustice to\u00a0<\/span>myself<\/span>\u00a0however. Now, I wonder if it\u00a0<\/span>is not the same self-induced oppression the closet restricted me once to.\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

What have I learned through these hard times? I\u2019m not entirely sure. I can see that even those much older than me are still affected by the experiences of a suffoca<\/span>t<\/span>ing \u201creligion.<\/span>\u201d\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span>The struggles\u00a0<\/span>of,<\/span>\u00a0what religion will I bring my kids into? What should I tell them to say when other kids at school ask? T<\/span>hings of that nature have shown me that at least t<\/span>hrough<\/span>\u00a0it all<\/span>,\u00a0<\/span>the only times anyone has benefited from this shared trauma has been when\u00a0<\/span>you have someone who understands why you feel the pressure of having to ask those questions.<\/span>\u00a0When it\u2019s been related to on a personal level with one another is when the right kind of evolving occurs.\u00a0<\/span>Sometimes I try and consolidate when I\u2019m feeling the sadness it has ringed out onto me from its dirty rag to the one person who\u2019s affecting me<\/span>, but it wasn\u2019t until even just writing this that I realize there were other people, even just in my family, who could help.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I guess what I\u2019m trying to say with all of this is that\u00a0<\/span>there\u2019s just a certain paradise many of us are trying to get to. Sometimes you just\u00a0<\/span>have to<\/span>\u00a0ask for hel<\/span>p before you drown on the way, and then you can\u00a0<\/span>even\u00a0<\/span>help the other ship get there. Communities aren\u2019t built overnight<\/span>. People are not one in a swift motion or snap. The\u00a0<\/span>shifting\u00a0<\/span>moments<\/span>\u00a0however, are golden.\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Here’s just a little video to end out the post. I hope you enjoy, it is a new single from BTS. They always just take me there gurl and this video is no exception.<\/p>\n