I feel really great.\u00a0 I’m happy, and I don’t really know why.\u00a0 Nothing has really happened to make me feel like this, but I just do regardless of reason.\u00a0 Last week, I don’t know why, but I felt really down.\u00a0 People say that you decide the kind of day that you have, but I’ve found that that is absolutely untrue.\u00a0 I tried everything I could to be happy, but I just couldn’t, and this week, I feel the way that I had been trying to without any of the effort I’d wasted last week.\u00a0 I really don’t understand how emotions work, and I’d be fine with that if I know that I’d continue to feel the way that I do.\u00a0 Of course I don’t and can’t know that.\u00a0 I think I just have ups and downs.\u00a0 I don’t know why it is the way it is, but it still is.\u00a0 I think people like to tell themselves that they can control how they feel just to feel like they have more control over themselves than they really do, or maybe they actually do.\u00a0 Maybe that’s just the way that I see things because I assume that the way things affect me is the way that they affect everybody.\u00a0 I guess that that’s kind of a pretentious assumption, but I only really have my own perception to work with when figuring out how others operate.\u00a0 I really don’t know that I do understand how others operate.\u00a0 I’ll begin to think that I’m not like other people because I’ll think that I don’t like what other people like.\u00a0 Say, for instance, parties; I always thought that I just didn’t really like parties.\u00a0 I never understood why other people did, but recently that’s changed.\u00a0 I’ve gone to parties where I was much closer with the people there, and I genuinely enjoyed them.\u00a0 It makes me think that I am like others but just haven’t figured it out yet entirely, but that’s not all.\u00a0 It makes me wonder if some of the stranger things that I like would be liked by others if they were exposed to them.\u00a0 Maybe if other people tried it out, they’d enjoy watching terrible movies from the 70’s that have been posted on YouTube because the rightsholders don’t care enough to take them because they know that nobody would be willing to pay money to see them.\u00a0 Maybe more people would enjoy playing old video games on consoles that don’t work with modern televisions if they could try them out, and not just the classics like Mario and Sonic games but games like Bonk’s Adventure on the TurboGrafx-16 which sold really poorly in the U.S.\u00a0 Maybe that’s just where I really am different, but there’s a chance that it’s not.\u00a0 There’s a part of me that really wishes people were more different.\u00a0 I feel like these things are part of what makes me who I am, but I know that I can enjoy what others enjoy if I decide to.\u00a0 Sometimes, it just seems like if I want to be able to relate to others, I have to hold back a part of myself.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I feel really great.\u00a0 I’m happy, and I don’t really know why.\u00a0 Nothing has really happened to make me feel like this, but I just do regardless of reason.\u00a0 Last week, I don’t know why, but I felt really down.\u00a0 People say that you decide the kind of day that you have, but I’ve found … Continue reading “Feeling”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":17,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1176"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/17"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1176"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1176\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1234,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1176\/revisions\/1234"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1176"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1176"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.msabrookhaven.org\/literary\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1176"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}